I think back to all the years behind me as I get ready to make the next move forward in my life. Throughout those years I have tried to be the best version of me that I could be, even though I have had to fight numerous bouts of depression and deal with an ego that produces fearful thoughts every time I tried to step outside of my comfort zone. Maybe it’s just the right time or maybe it’s because I’m getting older and the things that used to stress me, just don’t anymore but over the last few weeks I have been releasing the stuff from the past that keeps coming back to haunt me…mostly relationships that should never have gotten off the ground or relationships that should have been given a chance when I had the opportunity and just general missed opportunities in my career, etc. In the past I would have played these situations over and over again in my head, wondering how I could change the past, but as you all know, my learned friends, the past is in the past and cannot be changed, no matter how much you want it to. We have to be content with forgiving and moving on, hopefully to bigger and better things.
The weight that is lifting off my shoulders is a release that I thought might not ever come. This time last year I had surrendered to the fact that my life was shit and that was that! But as with all cycles in life, I am now sure that I can create the life of my dreams and that the next time I hit a low I will be better prepared to push through it and climb that hill back to happiness and contentment.
On the outside my life doesn’t look like it has changed that much in the last few weeks, but on the inside a flower that was closed is now blossoming and filling me with a feeling of anticipation and joy. I am experiencing a deep sense of peace that I have not felt in a long time and all I had to do was let go of the past. I mean really let go. You can say you have but until you really do, it will hold you back in all areas of your life. I call to all those experiencing the same to be brave and take that next step, to remove yourself from the shackles that have bound you to your past. Be free, be at peace, be true to yourself now. Now is all we ever really have. Enjoy it because all too soon it is in the past…